back~

hey~ i'm back.....

i really wanna blog but i have nothing to write and also all my travel photo's are still processing so

its gotta wait

and i have like 600+ pics so u guys cant expect me to post them right^^ forgive me !!!!

but if u wanna ask me, u guys can ask me as freely as u wish XD

so...school eh

finally went to school guys ( p.s i m lazy)

had shit loads of homework and gotta rush my projects since exam's just around the corner

i have a science test on wednesday SHIT ==

and kei told me that i had over 30+ of homeworks and assignments to complete

@##$$%%^^$!!

So probably wont on9 very much

ciao!

cheah's birthday

her hs: my lame photo shooting skills

FIRSTLY HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHEAH!!!!!!

finally 14 eh XDD

so we celebrated it with BBQ in her new hs

btw? can malays eat BBQ?? heng

her hs damn nice!!! i love her bro's room because its blue!!!!


lol her lighting can change colour wan

someone gave her a card.... so cute!!!

and ta da this is the two ba po. when they were surrounded by the mutiara girls, they were so shy!!!

HAHAHA so cute la the two of them
their "yeng" pose

we went swimming afterwards in T-SHIRTS!!!! HAHA

so nice.

k3i don't wanna swim and i kept trying to hug her when i was dripping wet XDD

after that

camwhored!!!!




cheah's wearing a dress!!!! XDD

i will savor this moment forever cheah!!!

ignore the face
loves
from above

and finally birthday cake!!!!

cake from sweet memories... so cute!!!!

Happy birthday to u

u live in a zoo

u look like a monkey!!!!

and......u smell lik one too XDD


When i ws abt to go home, i felt like crying GAH

because of ___________________

finally came home and packed

bon voyage guys!!!

alright!! tomorrow at 4pm i'll be arriving in KLIA or the TERMINAL...

i'm sitting the cathay pacific i think. and my mum said that the seats are gonna be like air asia. WTF

so i'm gonna sit there for 18 hours ==

my luggage is larger and heavier than me == plus its orange!!!!

god i just dread abt all the fights i'll have with my mum. she's so fussy =(

and i'll finally be able to meet uncle jasper, uncle josh, uncle peter (maybe), uncle ricky and uncle alexis

gosh....my skin's gonna start peeling again...this always happens everytime i go to a cold country ==

gonna try getting more creative with my photo taking skills...trying not to make our travel photos look like what ppl do in the 80's

u know, the messy hair, the oily face, the totally NOT creative photo angle.

so gonna throw in some effects like sepia, black and white or color focus.... yea XD

bye!

travelling blues

As some of u might know i'll be gone from the 10th till the 23rd

I'LL BE LEAVING FOR EUROPE YEAH!!!!

though this is my first time going there, lotsa preparations were made

and mum asking me this over and over agn

do u have back up pads? yes
did u buy lotion and lipbalm? yes
no liquids over 100 ml above kay? sure
rmb to bring ur phone? yea
shit ! we don't have enough luggage space ==

i'll be travelling to 5 or 4 countries

1st stop germany, frankfurt
2nd stop switzerland
3rd stop france, paris
4th stop Italy
5th stop london

and i'll be on countless planes. 15 + hours each..... ==

and it'll be @##$%^& raining and cold

i wont even be back after the holidays end

and guess what my uncle told me after he came back from dubai

now, even mascara cant even bring onto the flight zzzzz

lipstick oso cannot ( not my problem XDD)

and there's alot of case of ur padlocks getting cut. stealing prehaps

but they all give u the lame excuse and say that they scare got bomb

WTF don't they know that our luggages had been scanned be4 the departure

use brain la ==

now i'm deciding on which book to bring onto the trip

obviously one book cant be enough

so i'll bring two or three == ARGGHHHHH

will i get fatter or thinner?

=____=

i don't particularly like to make friends with boys

because they hurt u, they use u. maybe not everyone just the unlucky ones like me

i was made a fool by them. tortured, teased

until now, i've never forgivened the ones who did that to me

who made my preschool and junior yrs horrible, unbearable

they use u and when u ask for help. they give u the most hurtful, self centered, egoistic answer i've ever heard

they can win an award

guys are total jerks. i'm not saying that all guys are

they tell u straight off that u're hideous or disgusting or whatever nonesense their bird brains can think abt. or sometimes they have the nerve to whisper it behind u when they know that u can hear

i've heard those lines many times. to other ppl and to me

when i was younger, i was gullible it disgusted me till i forced a finger down my throat and threw up into the toilet bowl. when i hadnt eaten anything.

boys? hmmmmm.....

they are egoistic, selfish, self centered, too in loved to oneself and revolting

well they have taught me a valuable lesson

not many can win my trust this easily these days. I prefer to avoid those that i know i cannot trust

for they only waste ur time. If they post some meaningless graffiti on my facebook wall, especially those who'd hurt me in the past, i will simply ignore them

i am not kin on forgiving. i am not kin on forgiving those hypocrites.

but i blame boys....

for now words hardly get to me.

when friends tell me that nothing's wrong, everything will be alright

i don't believe too easily and prefer to believe that the world is fabricated over a world of lies.

that makes me think of reality. for u might never know what it might throw at u

and for my friend.

dear

how can u be so lan c now? ur ego has returned

now u have a whole group of guys cowering at ur feet. thinking of u as a high priestess or what we call nowadays DAI GA JIE

and what happens when u lose them? hmmmm....?

are u just gonna continue this facade? breezing through reality. getting too touchy feel when it comes to guys

taken guys

remember what u did to my guy?

u violated our space. me and my guy's space so that u can "upgrade" ur reputation

or what i like to call "school profile"

touching him in front of me.

i've stood beside u, holding ur hand when times get tough. but it seems that u like to take things for granted . hmmmmm....??

u want to be looked up as "yeng"

well i tell u. u are very yeng. yeng in pretending

u have the nerve to tell me that

"actually i don't like u, is u like me"

that was a big soccer punch

are u that zi lian???? do u realized that without ur friends around u've got nothing??

u try so so hard to be a dai ga jie. everybody can see it. have u got no shame?

when ur words are all filled with half hearted ness...no meaning

we all hear ur loud voice when u want to grab attention. and u just cant wait to take pic with a cute guy so that u might seem more "popular?"

and if a guy doesnt answer u , u become so upset. not wanting to do anything

as if they are ur whole life

grow up will u?

i feel so sorry for u *laughs*

because i realized that u might never find "real happiness"

lovin this song

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

weee. nice pic

chipped nail polish~~~ XDD

haiz gotta start studying soon......

check out that huge lump @#$% books behind me.

HAPPY MERDEKA DAY!!!!! ^^

ITS ALIVE!!!

MY PHONE IS FIXED

~YAY~

anyways....felt like getting a jacket

but i probably have to save up and earn it. like work for it

cause i don't wanna digg into my money box that i save for rainy days. i mean a girl's gotta prepare right?

i dun get monthly allowance so i gotta save up for things that i wanna buy.

so which jacket should i buy??

let me know whacha think

p.s i'm thinking of selling some of my old clothes and accessories. and don't worry they are reasonably priced and i accept refunds. postage is free too.

beeen reading alot lately

i've recently read

1.shopaholic
2. the vampire's assistant
3.cirque the freak
4. tunels of blood
5. tempted
6.hunted

now i wannn more books

karma

god god why am i crying .....

this doesnt feel like home anymore

i spent more time in my room then i do normally. i don't even feel like going home anymore

i can feel tears behind my eyes everytime i come home.

i just want things to be back to the way it was

when we were happy and laughing together. telling each other stories of our day.

but now...... it seems that to me

two's a company, three's a crowd

i am forever never to enter ur life am i?

i feel like staying in school forever. i have friends there. my baby

they love me without any condition. i love them

i decided to keep quiet throughout dinner everyday.

when u guys criticize me, i keep my head down low, my eyes forever glued to my plate

and now U GUYS SAY THAT I AM LAN C?????

just because i would not answer to ur criticism, u guys say that i am BITCHY????

i couldn't bring myself to agree that i am useless, stupid, bitchy, rags, lan c. those are not true

as far as i am concern.

i can't even cry anymore.

i will never surrender to u. never.

i just needed someone to love

random random facts

show u guys one leng luii, believe it or not she took this photo by herself!!! with a tripod . yeng



1. if i wear eyeliner all over my eyes...i look exxxxxxxxxxxxxxtra lan c

2.i hate one person and named her horse face!!!!

3. i have bruises all over my body ><

4. I REALLY WAN A NEW CAMERA!!!

5.my fon finally sent to repair liao

6. i wan go outttttttttt

random

felt like buying this camera but this is touch screen == and i when i walk always po kai sooooo.....
actually wanted to buy this but my mum already has the gold one sooooooooo....

i hav no idea

but i have plenty of time to ask because i will probably only ask for a new camera if i score great marks in PMR

oh well ==

ouch it hurts

U CALL ME A FAKER??? Haha I cannot believe that my own mother can say that to me.

U hear but u don’t listen. U never listen to whatever I want to say to u.

U say that I’m stubborn, u say that I’m a freak (yep she says that to me ) she calls me shit

U know why I don’t wanna listen to u? Because when u call me to do things, u speak to me as if I am ur employed maid.

I AM UR DAUGHTER. I don’t wan to admit that u’re right because once I admit it, u will smile in pleasure. Not the nice kind either. U gave me that wicked grin and say “I told u so(ouch)”

U don’t say

“I’m glad that u’ve changed”

“ I’m sorry I was harsh on u”

Or at least smile? Smile like what a real mother would do!

God why am I crying while typing this out?

I still remember

When I was 6, u wanted me to act like I’m 17

Any kind of mistake I make, any kind was like a disgrace to u guys, my parents

From spiling a drink, falling down, or simply misplacing something

It was like hell. Because any kind of mistake seemed to make u guys hate me more

And the hate has grown.

When I mess up, u guys don’t say “ try not to do it again”

U guys just say” what is ur problem?” or ‘ y u so ma fan wan”

When I was younger if I refuse to listen

U guys threathen me, up until now

WHAT U THINK THAT I FUCKING CARE ABT THE DAMN EUROPE TRIP?!

I’M LEAVING ON MY BESTFRIEND’S BIRTHDAY

I HAVE T O GO TO EUROPE FOR 2 WEEKS SURROUNDED BY YOU

NO PRIVACY

WHY THE HELL WOULD I WAN TO GO THERE

U think that little threat would make me fall?

Mother I am strong, I am not stupid

U’re no parent

U crush ur child’s dream, her creativity, her voice.

U HAV MONEY ,A HUSBAND WHO LOVES U, GREAT HEALTH

WHAT MORE DO U POSSIBLY WANT?

Was I an accident? Because it’ll seem like a whole lot nicer to be borned with a different mother

lens lens lens

longggggg time ago pic...ignore my baka face XDD

recently feel like wan purchase again lens but dun wan so fast buy later po kai XDD

i wannn:

geo angel blue
geo nudy golden blue
geo nudy grey
super barbie nudy pink

usually i buy from this seller

http://suhyin-colorlensshop.blogspot.com/2009/02/geocatalogprice-list.html

100% trusted seller, friendly and orginal. when u order then tomorrow can reach liao (geng)

but i wait my other lens expire first then only buy

random pics

sungai wang

mega sale came!!!! so me and mum go and shop shop

ntg say so just let the pics talk

altogether cost rm100+




dunno why love this one the most ^




my fon still spoil =__________=

kids

kids..aihs...

if a small kid with a reputation for not being annoying came up to me and start talking about star wars or i don't know? pokemon? i wouldn't mind

but if a small kid, spoiled, weepy, annoying, demanding and acting cute ish. i would probably feel like slapping the kid. yep this only applies to small little girls.

i hav to deal with two spoiled, weepy, rich, annoying, demanding, cute ish little girls everyday on my way to school. ofcourse i car pool.

sadly they are my neighbors. ish

unlike my friends, i don't exactly squirm along with the kids or offer piggy back rides on a daily basis

u guys really cant blame me for being cold. i'm not cruel to them. but its best to avoid them

how's living with ur dad's employee's family fro 6 freakin years. someone u don't know .

i have made friends with their children. they are my child hood friends

but their parents gave me a cold shoulder all this time. i pretended not to mind.

unlike some kids. at their age, i wasnt really acting cute ish or feeling cute ish or any kind of child like pleasure.

because i remembered that when i look into the mirror. my aunts always tell me to not be vain.

when i dance around in my new dress. they call me to CUT IT OUT. i mean c'mon i was a kid. what kid doesn do that

i don't rmb getting any kind of hug or congratulations when i was staying at their home.

when i found out that they only " pretended" to love me was because of the money.

yep my mum paid them to take care of me.

i cried for heaps and kicked myself for being so gullible. way to go for feeling like i belong. but all the time i already know that i don't belong, i just didnt want to admit it to myself.

how did they love me? they take away my toys. scold me for being vain for what?! just because my mom sent me a new dress. treat me unfairly among the children.

some love guys

the only person who wishes me happy birthday in that child hood home was my nanny.

so that might be the explanation. get it?

let's see

1. my phone is fucking useless and i hav to tell dearest 'mum'. i can already imagine the scene

2.i'm leaving for Europe on my bestie's b'day.how wonderful

3.leaving for europe means i have to study study earlier. because after i come bac from my vacation...exam starts. shite

4. i got a damn flu and sore throat( thx lao gong so sweet giv me ji hua drink ^^)

5.i am officially bankrupt

6.i havent do geo project because i hate the teacher

7. i just realized that i have insufficient undergarments to last through two weeks

8. mega sale came and i want to shop!!!!!!!!!! but mum is sick TT so maybe no go


wow life is just...........great

dun expect too much

my motto: dun expect too much from someone

when i pak to first time with any guy, i wont expect much from a boy

at first, will be all sweet sweet then slowly become ........u all know la XD

i wont so fast give my kiss. cause my kisses are precious. HELL YA

i wont simply give anyone my mwaaahhss

i wont so fast buy ring, necklace...whatever

i wont so fast make promise

everything must be slow

because there would be no meaning

because if we all girls believe too much in love, give him our everything then when he break up with us

we not feel very heart break??? feel until like wan die lik that jkjk==, feel like wan have revenge??

i wont simply say

i promise i wont leave u

u're the only person in my heart

i can' t live without u

u're my evrything

we'll be together forever. I PROMISE ==

if i say to the person i love, is i really mean it. i really dun lik to say all the thing that can easy to break

i wont make promises that i won't be able to keep

i wont expect too much from the person i love

i give time and chances

i really dun like to rush things

i like this

i wont have any regrets because i knew that i tried my best. that's y i dun feel any need to take revenge, reach for a blade or wish that we were back together

that's how i'd like to end each relationship in the future

but all i know is that i will try my best

love u lao gong ^^

europe

btw peeps

i'm going to europe in september !!!

i'll be gone for two weeks

mum said that we'd go to paris, italy or some weird place

but what's worst is that i'm leaving ON MY BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY...ARGGHHHHHH

and i'd be walking around europe from 5 am to 10 pm for the next two weeks

talk abt extreme workout

ciao !

love euuu

our rings.......too bad i lost it

actually he lost it first and found it but on the day he found it i lost it.....==

hehe that's us being naturally stupid

that's like the ONLY picture i have of u.......

he always dun let me take pic

but nvm ^^
the birthday present u gave me

dear i'm hugging this bear everynight

finally 'i love u dear'^^

happy 1 year 12 months dear

addicted to korean noodles

cut liao hair...ish ugly

but no picture because no phone and yeah i hav no camera

sry lovely lao gong today dunno why angry u

HAPPY 1 YEAR 12 MONTH lao gong!!! ^^

muckxx muckxx