less on9

as much as u'll be hoping: i won be on9 for a long time

because my dad banned me from the internet during the weekdays, school days excluding holidays

reason? because i couldn't wake up in the mornings

that's why

so yesterday was a saturday

meaning that i have to go out on that day..with the entire family

so instead of goin to hartamas like usual..we went to ikano instead after eating in one of our fav restaurants called...lala mui...can u believe it.. a restaurant called la la mui

they must be kidding

went shopping

ntg much



altogether cost around rm 99.90 from padini outlets

then at night this stupid guy go and sms me

i keep say no

i do not want to be sms pals with u

then i stop replying and he kept sending the texts

so i scolded him in two sms

with lots of swears

and then in 30 minutes finally shut him off

i know i this year, suddenely my rage is returning

did i mention that i slapped and injured someone?

i bet u don't want to know abt that

i have no idea y

last year so calm and so sweet

then this year.......

anyways

bb

addiction

i m addicted to facebook

i mean the games

so fun

haha

ITS ALIVEEEE!!!! XD

hahaha my phone is alive..ITS ALIVEEE

i'm serously crapping now

believe it or not

i checked on9: How to save ur wet phone

and the thing that popped up on screen..is

[ soak it in dry rice or something something that i've never heard of]

and i did..

and now its alive

i dunno how they do it

and there were like dozens of comments saying:

MY PHONE IS NOT DEAD THX SO MUCH HAHA..IT WORKS?


so...

i need to go shopping

not for clothes but for body care

lotion, falsies, other girly stuff

i know that its a shame for an ex- tomboy

well..too late

i'm so girly

and this year is the year that my lao gong finally saw my angry face

me so malu let him see my angry face

first time in 1 year 4 months

u know why i angry?

well, i think only my lao gong know

if wan know then ask me bah


ntg to do now

bb

I HAVE OFFICIALLY BOMBED MY PHONE

AND WHEN I MEAN BOMB..i mean BOOM

ROSAK LIAO...LIKE BOOM BOOM...ITS WET

I ACCIDENTALLY SOAKED IT

SO PLS DUN SMS ME

i got my phone soaking in dry rice...

this wont be the last goodbye

p.s she's the one with the red shorts

meet juliana teng. most of u know her as the cheeky mischevious annoying form 3 girl but now she's form 4 and she had migrated to aussie last saturday. god i miss her ....

she may be annoying but she's like this unique sunshine that u can't find any where else. she makes u talk. she makes u smile at the end of ur horrifiying day . she is my friend. more like a big sister to me since i never had one. she's my neighbour and she used to sit in the same van with me. i've known her for years and now i can't believe that i can't see her evryday now.
anyways

last saturday she called my mum from the air port to pick up some things from her now abandoned house. they were plastic bags full of cards and farewells so that i could post them to her friends in sss. she also left me some things

now she' slike goneeee!!!!! THE FAMOUS JULIANA HAS LEFT THE BUILDING OF SSS
i know she has a funny smile but hey she's getting braces and u better believe that she'd be way way prettier when its gone

btw she's the one holding the drink
she left me these. it made me cry.
BOOKS!!! i love them !!

so that's the end of my post

bye bye

but julie this wont be the last goodbye kay

tell me soon if u're coming back to visit malaysia

wish granted

so long never take picha liao..me too lazy but actually is most of the time the picha will turn out very ugly.

actually this oso not the picha of that day when i go out to sw

is the time i go my dad's cousin sis wedding wan..she so yeng marry a Swedish guy.

ntg there la...but po kaii..keep po kaii...

my mum just give me rm 200 and she go with her fren liao

then i go and eat with her friend in the tawainese express but not nice deh

actually i introduce them the restaurant called T BOWL.. is we sit on toilet bowl and eat from toilet bowl..haha

but they dun wan..they say very wei...==


see i so good girl..use recyclable bags XD me so perasan

alot of lenglui but not many lengzai...actually i oso no see wan

i just keep see phone onli..my babe sick ..haih...hope she will get better

me buy alot alot of dress..because mum start scold me...me keep buy t-shirt and shorts

guess wat..i'm going to hong kong agn this chinese new year..some more hong kong in february is winter..walau.... i wan to spend my chinese new year in warm weather not cold weather la...haih

so that is reason why i buy the two jacket above

the others buy from my favourite shops =]

so altogether i spend my mum deh rm 200 and my own rm 120= rm 320

chinese new year = new clothes mah

go home around 4 then reach around 5

then eat chicken rice for dinner

end of my sunday shopping spree

bye...

coffee craze

today..i've been as sweet smelling as coffee...

i know..coffee

i used to take coffee every day..until now..

see i knocked down my can of nescafe during break which left a smell on my skirt

so i had to use cheah's jacket as camouflage (which now smells like coffee ==)..thx babe let me use ur jacket =]

reason? because i was too tired and blur

reason?

i was too lazy to do my hw so i played sdo instead

then i finally do my hw yesterday from 11 untill 12 am

haih..

not just that..but at approximately 3 in the morning my electricity in my house got shot...

argghhh

and i wasn't woken up by the so called warm temperature..but by the sound of slamming doors, cursing and frustration..yes my chaotic parents

then i went sleep anyway..i had no intention of waiting for my aircon to on agn...

i was too tired

which resulted in sleeping on dear's shoulder in the morning

almost drooling in class during bm and math

it was torture...

then mum came back and complained abt the traffic from leisure ..or some crap thingy

then i felt like getting drunk

(yeah right, gnawing on BBQ pizza and chugging down 4 mugs of sprite was not my definition of getting high)

hz...i miss the old school days..and when i mean by old school days..i mean by the preschool days

when all u do is learn 1+1 and ABC and u get to have naps ..ah..naps...and snack on biscuits

life is hard...

i wanna go shopping....!!!!!

i want to go to sw

aaahhh...

it took me a while to realize that i only have approximately 4 pairs of shoes..==

a converse, nike shoes, white wedges from pasar malam, and nichii shoe

== maii mum started to scold me liao...because everytime go out onli wear the same 4 pairs of shoes..ahem ahem...

and i need a new all purpose bag...that can match all of my clothes and is roomy and long lasting

y so hard to find wan ==

would u believe it that this year was finally the year that i learned to appreciate shoes..==

I NEED SHOES..

gdbye

i am totally thawed to death from hw

cleanse cleanse cleanse

okay...i seriously need to start cleansing..and no its not the whole skin care regime thingy..its the whole mentally and emotionally..not to mention physical cleanse...0o and i also need to cleanse my room TT

so let's slough off all the bad and bring in the now. (pfffttt...who came up with that line...anyways). i really need to start listening in class now..i can't afford to fail this term, next term and the next term after that. since i'll have lotts of competition against me this year and not to mention next year if i get good grades...haih

and now that i mentioned studies ( shit...i havent done any of my hw yet)....and i'll have to start working out now..i know that this is on all of the female resolution list..which is obvious...my thighs are like jelly now and .....(p and c)..ahem...ahem..'

and we all know that if we..hail from a chinese family.there's always this superstitious crap that we can't sweep or clean the house during chinese new year. like we're sweeping away the good luck and welcoming the bad luck (which should be the other way around ==). so i have to clean out my cupboards...my old paperbacks...and clothes that i no longer wish to wear...

ok..now i'm just looking forward to the ang pows i'll receive...i'm constantly broke

take that as my rm100 for a whole month == (my allowance)

hmm...and i really want to cut my fringe now...its so annoying

played sdo just now and went bonkers from looking at the arrows...i'm fine now xp

to vanessa:
are u talkin abt the post that i posted abt how fed up i was?

and if u're sad then hang in there

be happy ya =]

i wish iwish

abt him:

he's the one person that i want to tell evrything to

he's just like my bestfriend except that i love to touch his lips

i love to rest my head on his shoulders

sometimes he likes to lie down on my lap

and i love it

we're almost 1 year 5 months ler...

i miss him so much

and i love him alot too

i love u lao gong ><

see..how i just abandoned my blog for a whole week...so sorry abt that..i was so freakin lazy, piles of homework, piano practises and i hate it...distractions..etc..etc..etc

and i feel like my blog is so black and white...enough with the effing moody posts already..arggghhhh

so school was boring...at least i got to see mellie and kai qi (the lim one) everyday after school since i started using the block C way

0o...and we had sejarah at last period and i made up this ridiculous theory with my friends

u know how in bab 1, us...tanah melayu ppl were tricked 0o i don't know...almost a million times by the british and we still believed them

why are we so stupid==

so i was staring at my textbook...and i noticed that orang melayu have more hair then those british like francis light and dunno who ==

and i was thinking in my head...hmmm

maybe we are so stupid and the british are so smart because

orang melayu- concentrates their energy on growing hair, sideburns and janggut...so all the impulses couldn't concentrate on one particular nerve..the brain...so that's y we're so stupid

and

british
noticed how they have so thinning hair? well, since the only need to use at least a quarter of their impulses or blood to grow their hair..so the impulses were continuosly working their butts off in the brain...that's y they're so effing smart

hahaha i know its very stupid..but hey i got bored

0o and encik amin (a PE teacher who teaches sejarah ==) is a good teacher but his handwriting is like shit!

0o and i left my phone in school agn..so pls dun sms or call me

thx bye bye

awww...how peaceful

yesterday was the first night of 2010...that i can finally sleep well..what a relieve

well...according to the picture above that was how i slept..ok so i definitely didn't sleep on a train- i was lying on my bed..

ever heard of the pharse?

ur body might be at ease but ur mind's still working

well, some of u might have heard abt it while some havent heard it before at all

my mind was working off the hinges last night...i was thinking and thinking and thinking

i was repeating the gomenasai lyrics in my sleep and i was thinking abt tomorrow a.k.a today

what will happen today..will i be happy sad because of.........

my body laid completely still the entire night and by 10:30 in the morning...my neck felt clammy and my body was stiff....move here and there..crack crack crack...crap

i was sleeping on my side..my legs were curled up..god it's still painful now...

so...

i'm addicted to the few songs below

gomenasai-tatu
automatic- tokio hotel
tik tok-kesha
i will not bow-breaking benjamin
brick by boring brick-paramore
u found me - the frays

gomenasai

note that the words that were written in bold means alot to me

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Was one of a kind, A precious pearl When I wanted to cry I couldn't cause I Wasn't allowed

Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you And ask you for help I stopped myself
Gomen nasai for everything
Gomen nasai, I know I let you down
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream An mirage Was as real as it seemed A privilege
When I wanted to tell you I made a mistake I walked away
Gomen nasai, for everything
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomen nasai, I let you down
Gomen nasai, Gomen nasai,
Gomen nasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

new bitch on board

i have a new bitch on board...well two bitches..on my list...except that my list deosn't include of bitching her, slapping her or shunning her...i just hate her...and she's pretty annoying

well except that she doesn't know me and she has officially pissed me off

all she's doing is making my pms more and more stress

ok..i take it back i wish that i can slap her..now

to the well known bitches

i feel like laughing when i see u bitch

u think that everybody loves u and u think that u're so damn great

u like to seduce guys and drag them out for a whole day...and some of them already has girlfriends

pls miss...u've completely lost it, crossed the line and pissed me off

u think that u're so smart bitch well u're a complete idiot ..havent u noticed glares and awkward stares bitch?

if not then u obviously are full of urself..u're blind...socially blind...

i feel very sorry for u..actually i'm lying..i am so not sorry for u

oh and when i'm angry it really does bring out the violent side of me...

i havent used it in a while...and i am certainly not childish like u

i don't have to put up such a strong fight like u...a hypocrite..that's what u are...

havent u no shame..bitch...u seem so desperate for a guy

well take a look...no one is queuing up for u...especially not u...

take a break,.... and one more step and i am seriously going to slap u

i am so not kidding..u know what...i'll just punch u in the face...right between ur eyes...breakng ur nose bridge

that's all i have to say bitch

u know who u are

don't be so jealous freak

i understand perfectly

I know that a lot of u think that I don’t deserve him…or rather he deserves someone else..someone better ...i’ve been lied many times and I know that a lot of ppl are talking behind my back…they’ve been talking for almost 8 years now although I’m onli 13 and 5 months..they still do and I dun know why…for years and years.. all I could see were stares and awkward looks from ppl as I pass them in school…sometimes out of school

I’ve opened my heart many times and have been stabbed in the ribs most of the time...i've learnt to keep my feelings locked up somewhere safe where nobody could reach them...i learnt to trust no one except myself...i try to shut myself from the world but i know that that's not the way to solve it..but what could i do..the bruises may be gone but the scars stay forever...i have flashbacks...sometimes my mood swings and i dunno why...those horrible horrible ppl...

they've done ntg but corrupted me, screwed me up and completely messed me up...i'm screwed....

someone told me abt what others were saying abt me and the first word that came out of my mouth was '0o' and that was that..i already knew that i couldn't trust anyone so y start believing that they will support me, hold on and be there by my side through thick and thin..i knew that it was happening anyway

and now my heart is really heavy...i'm dying i'm bleeding...i'm lying to my dear..i pretended that i'm happy when each day..i was dying more and more and more..now i'm lying to him agn because if i told him the truth..a wave of guilt would wash all over me and ppl would think that i was selfish...i'm crying now but i'm sure that it will dry in the morning or hopefully be4 i sleep...i need sleep..i'm sick...i'm coughing...vomiting...i feel so empty...

i couldn't eat dinner..i was swallowing i didn't taste it because mum is sick too and dad mood became worse

can't he tell that i'm upset-of course not

how could u be so heartless...so happy...

y is it happening all over agn

why are so many ppl trying to separate us...or just me from him...i don't get it but i do understand y...i just wanted to be happy...y is it so hard to be happy...i want to feel it agn...i want the moment..i want to feel loved..but no...

this post is probably one of the most truthful post of all my 107 posts...

pls no comments...dun post anything abt this on my tagboard...

i dun wan to see it

really really pissed off

why is the internet so damn slow...and its making my system crazy...i'm repeating wtf wtf wtf and i'm completely pissed when the internet starts to disconnect and connect and vise versa agn

not to mention the fact that i have no idea on how to do a few pieces of my hw...

is it just me...or is this year gonna be harder than last year...i hope not...0.0

well, school was fine i guess....

and jia wen came!!!...she came in casual clothes and she straightened her hair which looked great ^^

we talked, chatted and all tons of crap...lao gong got pei me which was really sweet ...

the only problem was that now our school is limiting our club choices for ECA ...so no choice but to just join orchestra...i can play the piano...but i'm so confuse to label myself as and amatuear or how do u say this terror?

really really messed up

and slept most of the time in the van, my eyes and half of my brain was shut down while my back was hurting and my head knocked onto the sturdy material called-seats...

well, ofcourse i'm crapping alot now..i have ntg else better to write anyway...

0o and before i forget I FINALLY GOT TO SEE MELLIE!!! my bestie who went to RIS through some scholarship...god i miss her so much..it really had been months since we've seen each other...

well..see ya!

school

aaaahhh so much hw to do

reasons why i couldn't post yesterday's post(a.k.a first day of school) will be stated in this post so read on...

ok...so woke up at 6:50...waited for mum to come down, hopped into the car...blah blah blah...chatted with mum and stuff...

then suddenely my mum told me that the uncle was at our front door and we're like 4km from the school-HAH

it felt really awkward walking from class to class, checking the list...then when i reached the end of the sr 2 block...i was like...frantic...em..why isn't my name in any of the classes listed here?
did they forget ...mess up?

then thankfully, mr.viktor said that maybe i was in 2joy which was located downstairs...

0o...and guess what..i'm stuck in 2joy and y am i upset is the fact that this class is so boring and serious and everybody's like so smart over there, felt so pressure...*gulps* more competition and guess what...

encik shahir is my class teacher and he barely remembered our names even though he taught most of us last year...==
and to my surprise...2joy is a class where students were specifically selected to go in there (the smart ass kids)...hz...like need work harder lik that...

and guess what we have FREAKIN HOMEWORKS on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!...will somebody kill me already..TT

and these are the teacher's whose teaching me...

geo- pn.fazilah

seni- it was suppose to be encik rizuan but it was another guy instead TT..i prefer rizuan...

BM-pn.zuree... she's ok and she teaches very well..i just hate that she's in the disiplin group

sej- encik amin..YIPEE!!!

eng- miss screedha..i like her..she's really good

maths- encik paneer..he reminds me of my doctor...==

sivik- miss pinky...y did she had to keep refering to me to so many examples..but she's a good techer though..she used to teach me sivik during my junior years

IGCSE- miss malathy...

sc- miss komarthi..she's really funny!!

PM- pn.wan

KH- mr yeong and pn.hasliza

and i think that's all.. i think

0o and guess what i have stomach pain of the first day of school..can u believe it...i was lik clutching my stomach the entire day...

and as usual..our uncle was late agn and i reached home at 6:30...which was so late since i had tuition...and after tuition..i was so exhausted...since i was sick and my mum drugged me with medication in the morning...i was just sleeping sleeping and managed to swallow a few spoonfuls of dinner...

bunked off early

so that concluded my first day of school

second day a.k.a today

i couldn't wake up in the morning, went to school late because of the school's stupid management of the traffic...we were lik so late for assembly...

0o..and they have a new rule now..girls with long fringe was persuaded to buy clips from the school...right....

so they talked for a really really really long time in the assembly...felt freakin tired..thx god i don't have stomach pains anymore...

studied studied..and then went down during break to buy the books from the school bookstore

didn't pei lao gong because i couldn't find him and there was just TOO much ppl in the canteen...yes sr 1,2,3 in the whole canteen..it was really crowded and i didn't want to sit alone since all of my friends were perfects....and they were on duty and i didn't want to look lik a loner or something so i just went up to pei pui kei during her duty

after school, met up with lao gong and he was very sweet..i missed him like crazy and i see that he's changed--in his appearance and his attitude in a very good way...

there were some new students in the van so it was pretty much jam packed...

went home...did my freakin homework....and rested on my bed for 10 minutes be4 going down to eat and watch 'so u think that you can dance'

and now i'm texting my lao gong and typing as we go along...gtg now..sleep early wake up early

*yawns*

back to school

i feel so giddy....so nervous...so ...so...i dunno...==

suddenly, i'm not so interested in going back to school anymore...

i mean...

hz...i m so dead right freakin nervous...

i havent wrapped the books...too lazy ==

hmm...and i have an allergy on my eyes...well..around my eyes...

i dunno...why..maybe i ate something that i'm allergic too?

but it couldn't possibly be prawn...na-ah...not possible...don't drag the prawn business into this...

I LOVE PRAWN...lols

so so not ready for school..

1 more week pls...

*insert giggles here*

went out as usual

so went out as usual...every saturday..every friday...its a pain in the ass

we went to eat at nagomi...a japanese steamboat restaurant and its my favourite =]

ate the usual

then i went to way lin and bought some earrings for my tuition teacher's birthday..allisson

u know...she's miss elvinna's collegue...and she's not annoying ...thank god...

she's been tuitioning me for almost 2 years..or 3 0,0 i forgot ==

and she's lotts fun to hang around..acts like a kid sometimes and she's really hilarious..has a dog named billy...

anyways..

then went to watsons to get toiletries.... ( toothbrushes and body scrub)..used own money ..ofcourse

then i remembered that my mum still owes me rm100

then i ask her then she gave me an extra rm50

equals: rm150...but i'm not gonna use it anyways...save it for next time...

then we all went home...end of my boring post